Wednesday, December 31, 2008



My holidays were great
I got to spend time with my kids, grandkids, family and the obligatory people that seem to show up every holiday, that no matter who you ask in the family, the answer is always "I'm not really sure that is, maybe they're with so in so!
Even so, the Holidays were good!

For some reason, the Doctors were anxious to keep there paychecks coming in.
I did eye exams, x-rays, MRI's and follow up visits.
No real new information except for a little more info from the oncologist.
The type of Cancer is a BrTRCRK
Astro- sitoma derajat rendah yang lebih jarang. Or at least that's what it sounded like he said!

Actually it is
anaplastic astrocytoma. Now, wasn't that fun adding that word to your vocabulary!
It's classified as stage 3 with 4 being the most aggressive level.
The Dr. said there are no guarantees, (just like my computer work).
But, he is recommending a combination of pill form chem o and laser mapped and guided radiation that should take about 6 weeks to complete.
(I hope they don't use Microsoft, they might have to REBOOT right in the middle of things)
I think that
laser mapped and guided stuff went off pretty well in "Dessert Storm" didn't it?
He said the major side affects were not as serious as traditional
chem o although I could lose hair (which I've always had plenty of) and possibly get my first Tattoo from the Radiation Therapy. (but my hair should cover it up when it grows back)
He did not give me any odds or success ratios he's seen in the past, but said that he may be able to calm the growth for a few years, and if it starts getting more aggressive again, we can try something different.
I really like this Dr. (not enough to go out with him or anything) but he seems to be competent and makes me feel at ease, which helps a great deal
That seems to be pretty much all we talked about.
Anyone want to hire a half-brained computer geek!
Or from what I hear, I could make even more money if I dress the part and show off my scars make a poorly written cardboard sign,
and find a really good street corner........................
Or better yet! Maybe if I buy a Lottery Ticket and choose the monthly payment for life option, maybe the State will increase my odds of winning!
OK! So they didn't succeed at removing all of my poor attempts at humor, but at least I have part of an excuse!

Cut to the Chase , ............Finally they all say!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm pretty sure that if nothing changes soon, I think I am going to do the treatment this time.
I actually am very up and very optimistic about the future and my decision.
Actually, that still small voice that I have listened to all of my life, spoke to my heart and my mind and said "GO FOR IT!"

"GO FOR IT!" I will!

thanks again for all of your thoughts and prayers, email etc.......
It's always good to hear from you!


Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Another Day!

Sorry for the Macabre on my last post!
I had a good nite and a productive morning getting rid of the concrete they fed me in the hospital!
So, now lets see if I can figure out how do a Blog!
A bit about me, that some of you know about ad some are unaware of.
My parents are Assembly of God Ministers and have been for 61 years.
I have 2 siblings born 4 and 5 years earlier.
The most important thing that I could say about my parents, that despite all of the Love that have giving to me throughout my entire life. These are the only people in this world that I have ever truly trusted. They have always stood on their high moral ground, no matter where I wanted to stand. As a result of their stand, I believe it is teaching me to stand.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

trying to learn learn Again.

From the other side!
I don't know how far I can get with this my self but I have to try to some something to try to use my mind. or what is left of it!
Other than feeling like half of my brain is tied behind my back. I don't feel bad!
Since the last surgery I have lost almost all use of my right hand. I did have use of my thumb and index finger. I am trying to use wherever is left.
It appears that I have lost about 25 to 35 lbs in the last 2 weeks.
I am currently staying at My parents and Uncles house in Driftwood, TX.
I am not very good at talking on the phone for now, So I am reserving that for my immediate family.
E-mails and cards are always appreciated and welcomed.
From what I was told, the oncologist wants to grow more cultures before deciding the final treatment plan!
I am not sure how I am going to choose to handle this!
It may all be a mute point due to the fact that I have no insurance and my bills are already more than I can pay, if I fully recover.
Other than that It's a good day to be alive and kicking!
I was up a good part of the night last night, thinking about computers and how I don't think that I know anyone that has never lost data to a computer!
Then I thought of how simple it will probably be to completely wipe out every line of code and every piece of Data ever stored digitally.
Then I thought of where that would leave the Human Race!
Send someone a Hand Written note for a Change! I bet it will mean more than 10 e-mails.
I think that will do it for today!

Do Good Because Good is a Good is a Good thing to Do!